The one thing I am bad at while travelling for work is taking pictures. I lugged my camera with me (in the nice new backpack that holds my laptops, cameras and blackberries) and didn't even use my good camera. Booo'urns. I have been all over Canada for work, and rarely took any pictures - something I regret.
So. This next trip to California...I will be taking alotta pictures (yes- alotta is now a word, didn'tcha know?)
CMBES was fab. Met a lot of great contacts, and although I am not the chatty type, this situation I found myself striking up conversation. I attended a couple of continuing education course (something I have never done in the past because they are darn expensive to register in, and I was fortunate enough to be allocated funds for such programs with my new position). One course in particular, Human Factors Assessment. WOW. What an amazing group (of women) and I was so interested in their work. We hit it off immediately, and I got some valuable contacts in Toronto.
I met Kim and some friends Tuesday night in Langley. Had some drinks with friends. worried a bit too much about Kim.
There is a reason why I am definately starting to doubt people. I've seen it all too often, people getting married, having children and just not being happy... I have 2 friends that have children, that are pretty much going through nasty divorces, not to mention I have no idea what my parents are actually doing (I don't ask, they don't tell - but they seemd ok when the met me the next night for dinner).
WHY. would I want something like that? The answer is I don't, the better quesiton is: what do I want? and I honestly don't know. I want children, well a child. I just don't see myself in a conventional relationship. I want one, were I am happy, but I don't have strings and being tied down. I want the freedom to make my own personal decisions, but when it comes down to relationship decisions and support to do that as a team, not as a couple. Enough trust in a relationship that goes both ways and the lines of communication are in place to avoid anything that can be misintepretted or construde.
Probably doesn't make too much sense to many people. I see the perspective of the main female character in up in the air. It's a combination of family life, with professional life, but there was still something missing in that situation. However, there was no honesty by either side. The different picture I see in my head, is from the woman's perspective and being able to have both of what she wants from the same person.
ill be 35 and do something like the back up plan.
It be Friday, and I have a lot of catching up on sleep to do this weekend.
"sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don't"
Happy Monday!
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